Praise you in the Storm.

Praise You in This Storm (Casting Crowns)
 I was sure by now, God
You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it’s still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
“I’m with you”
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.
And I’ll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I’ve cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
 I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone
how can I carry on
if I can’t find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away
I lift my eyes unto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord,
the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes unto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord,
the maker of heaven and earth

God does not make us feel guilty.


Since I have been diagnosed with Lupus I seem to always have this battle inside of my own mind with not being able to be who I once was. I have a hard time accepting the transition of who I was to who I am now. I fight not being able to go and do all that I want, with all that I have in me, and it’s an exhausting fight.

Often times I end up hurting myself because I still have a lot of things that I want to do but there are more things that I can’t do. I have an ongoing battle in my mind and I often feel like I am not the person I was anymore. I feel guilty when I miss out on things. I feel guilty when I have to say I can’t go or I can’t do what people want me to do. There are a lot of days that I feel as if I have lost who I am and I feel guilty because it’s not fair to my family and friends. I feel guilty that my family and my friends watch me suffer.

If I had to take all my health issues and list out how each one affects me, I would say the most difficult one to handle is the emotions and guilt with being sick would be at the top of my list, I feel guilty for being sick and my illnesses drain my emotions.

No one really talks about it much but for me the guilt is devastating. A lot of people talk about slipping into depression and that is a huge subject for another day, but today I want to bring awareness to the fact there is a feeling of guilt in chronic illness and it is normal, I can only say how I feel about the guilt that I have but I am betting a lot of people with chronic illness has this as well.

Over the last few years, I have had to slowly succumb to the things I should not do. In some cases, it’s not the things that I cannot do but the things that I can do but if I do those things I suffer immensely. I can’t do things like I want to and like people want me to. It’s changed my entire life, and often I feel guilty for not being able to help, or volunteer, or just being able to jump in. I miss that part of my life.

However, I have to remember that guilt is not from God, it is the trick of the enemy. God never makes us feel guilty, God doesn’t work that way. When we feel guilty it is an emotion that makes us feel inadequate, sub-par, and below average; God has nothing to do with that, that is the enemy trying to bring us down so that we will give up.



God draws us to Him out of love and compassion, it is our own insufficiencies that bring us to the point that we feel like we do not measure up to God’s standards and expectations.

I have learned to surround myself with Godly people who bring me back to where I need to be in order to fight this fight. I have also learned that I can not fight this fight alone. I have accountability, and I put it all down for Jesus to deal with.

If you have a chronic illness and you are fighting guilt, don’t give up! We are in this together, you are not alone. It’s ok to “not be ok.”

It’s ok to change your standards to brand new standards.

I am having to learn to do this, so we will do it together. It doesn’t mean we are any less, we are simply finding new ways to cope. Lastly, do not be afraid to go to your doctor because these feelings are normal and they can help. #guiltisnotofGod #chronicillnesslife #emotions #inspirational

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God is always moving.


God is always moving but it is easy to get caught up in the moment when hard times come, maybe you feel like you are in a dark hole screaming to the top of your lungs and nobody is hearing you. I know I have felt like this a time or two in the last four years at least.

Things happen that are beyond our control, and we put our faith in God just like we should. We pray and we pray and as far as we can tell, nothing is changing, then we begin to think that God isn’t moving. That is just enough for the enemy to creep in with his lies and fill our minds with doubt.

God is always moving even when we do not see it!!!

We just want to see a flashing neon sign saying, GOD is MOVING NOW!!

Blessings are often considered too late or not enough.

Maybe the miracles of God are exactly within that statement because God’s timing is perfect. He knows our needs and exactly how much we need. His ways are not our ways!!

God is God, he is all-powerful, all-knowing, all loving, and his love never fails.

Today, Praise God even if you are in the middle of a storm. He’s got this! He is moving!

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God gives me power and authority.


With every problem or crisis that we acquire, there are two choices; fear or faith, and we must choose one each time we face a crisis. We make the choice, fear or faith, almost immediately and most of the time we aren’t even aware that we are making a choice.

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Being Understood


Being Understood.

Losing to Gain

Matthew Winters (Honest Thoughts from a Pastor)

If anyone else here shares my sentiments, this is your least favorite weekend of the year – the weekend we lose an hour of sleep. I love the time change that takes place in November because I gain an hour of sleep, but human nature despises losing. We want to gain.

Despite the loss of an hour of sleep this weekend, we will gain something – an extra hour of daylight. Notice the principle here: in order to gain, we must lose something. The opposite also applies. When I lost weight, I gained in areas of my physical health. When I gained weight, I lost the ability to climb up hills without extra exertion, etc. Any gain takes sacrifice or a loss.

Christ suffered loss so that we would gain. He paid a tremendous price to pay for our salvation. So as we grunt about this weekend, may we focus…

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What if God wants to use you and what you are going through to reach someone else? What if He wants to heal you so that your story can heal someone else? I know that I often see myself as insignificant but God does not see me that way! He sees me and you differently than how we see ourselves. He sees us stronger than we give ourselves credit for, he sees us as victorious, significant, and he wants for us to live the abundant life that he prepared for us before we were even born.

We were made to RISE above! Whatever you are facing today, it does not define who you are. Maybe you have an illness, depression, addiction, abuse, anxiety, or past regrets, whatever it is God has a plan. Be still and you will find it.