Trusting requires not knowing the answers.

I trust God, but it is not always easy.  I don’t think it is supposed to be, however it’s a choice that I have to make daily. Trusting requires not knowing any of the answers and not knowing what the ending is. It’s not in my nature to step back and just let it play out but with my this unpredictable illness, my only constant and my only hope is God. God has saved me many times over so far. From the outside it doesnt look pretty but I have peace on the inside and I see that he has never left me. Is it tough?…yes absolutely but I know that in my weakness he is made strong.