I have walked through some of the darkest years of my life alone, so I thought. I have have been broken from the illness that won’t let up, my mind has been confused, my inner-self frozen and I have been in denial of what was happening to me mentally, physically, and spiritually. I have felt so lonely, that I just want to give up. I have thought more times that I want to admit, that I can’t just make it through another day. However, no matter where I have been in this journey, God has always sent help my way.
It may have been an encouraging word from a nurse, or something I read, or sending someone my way to bring a word of grace, but he has always provided what I needed.
I have learned this, I look for God even in the smallest of things. He is always doing something. I know the closer that I walk with God, the more Satan will try to detour me. He certainly doesn’t want me to rise above my problems and he doesn’t want me to get close to my Heavenly Father. What Satan doesn’t realize is the very tool that he thought would make me turn on God has brought me even closer. The sickness and the hardships of my life has has forced me to put my complete dependency on God instead of myself or someone else. I know that David wrote in Psalms 23,” Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for you are with me.”